Have you ever realized....

..that you were the only person holding yourself back? Like out of nowhere a ton of bricks hits you with a note attached to them that reads " This is so much easier than you think. dummy." on it? I feel like these moments provide the rip current for the waves in my life. Those waves that make me remember once again that I am so much better than I lead myself to believe. Some may relate their phases to the moon, but I never pay attention to things like that. I would never be the type for a longitudinal study considering my lack for consideration of time. Even though it is also my main source of anxiety ( self-imposed, of course) .


I am slowly but surely realizing that my constant battle with procrastination stems from the fear of all the realisitic possibilities of the person I am. I mean, not always, but for the majority of my college career I have been able to progress with passing grades by doing work that was done in literally a considerably small fraction of the actual time that was actually provided to do something.

It is time for a change. The change where I realize that while I have many goals, realistically this whole college thing is the biggest investment I have made in my whole life so far. Therefore it really is where I should put all my cards. Not to mention... why not get smarter? That is something NO ONE can take from you. And for all you's out there thinking to yourself " I wants the smarts but ain't got no college." No worries. Libraries are pretty much the most amazing thing you'll ever experience. That is, if you give it the time to make it an experience. The internet is great and all, but what about real tangible words? Literally, words you can hold onto. There's not much better than that. I'm finding myself getting slightly turned on by terms such as " Periodicals, Leather-bound, and Non-Fiction."

Moving on.

sidenote: I am either officially crazy or I can currently feel a hair growing on my arm.

another sidenote: The real issue with sluts, isn't that they are sluts, it is that they have the ability to move and spread their slut. Does "fresh start" = virginity?

last sidenote:I don't have time in my day to worry about who walks first when trying to solve a maze of people.


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